2001-09-06 - 12:13 a.m. Yesterday was such a good day for me. And now today just turned out to be shit. I don't know what it is but I just feel like shit right now. It's just one of those days I guess. I really wish I had someone to just vent this kind of stuff too. But since my girl situation right now is at it's usual pace. I don't have anyone to really talk to. But well I just hope that someday that'll all change. But damnit it just hurts soo much sometimes to be this lonely. Now when I say lonely I don't mean I don't have any friends or anything. I have some of the best friends I've ever had right now. I mean in my heart I'm lonely. I fell so empty inside sometimes. Maybe this is how it's meant to be for me. Maybe I screwed up long ago and missed my opertunity. A good friend of mine always tells me it all happens for a reason. But it's been so long. Oh well I will just have to accept this state of numbness for the time being. Besides I've gotten pretty good at it in the past few years. I leave you now with sumthin I wrote a long time ago: Its been so long since it happenedTo me it seems like a life-time an eternity an endless nightmare when will it end WHen will I wake from this dream I thought I was living in a dream world it was too good to be true To much happiness to be true To little disagreements Now there is nothing Am I now dreaming or was I dreaming then or both I do not know Its too bad there is no one to help me I can't help but to look for help I've never dealt with this kind of thing before its all so new to me as was it then I didn't know how to make it last how to work things out I didn't know what was important All i was concerned with was you and your happiness above all else Including myself and my happiness I only wanted to give you the world and to share all the good things in it with you now I can't |
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